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[ludomania]

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Felipe Asztalos, 37

I'm sorry I missed you.

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[telepathy]

are you going to the party

[ludomania]

naturally. you should come too and hear me sing.

[telepathy]

you sing?

[ludomania]

i do. quite beautifully.

where have you been?

[telepathy]

outside the wall
its quieter
it wasnt you

[ludomania]

all by yourself? where do you sleep?

[telepathy]

im used to sleeping outdoors

[ and being alone ]

[ludomania]

isn't it cold out there?

[telepathy]

compared to the wilds it is
but even at night it still feels like late fall
and i brought a blanket

[ludomania]

when are you coming back?

[telepathy]

im bringing rabbits for the party

[ that's why she reached out, duh!!!

but this also elides that she has no plans to come back for good until she has herself under control, somehow. ]

[ludomania]

and you'll stay to hear me sing

[telepathy]

yes

[ now that she knows to, she certainly will make sure she lasts at least that long ]

[ludomania]

i'm happy to hear that.

[telepathy]

are you okay

[ludomania]

ask me that in person.

[telepathy]

[ the trouble is her doubts about whether or not she'll feel up for that in person. ]

why

[ludomania]

because that would be nice.

[telepathy]

[ she's digging herself a little grave here, isn't she? letting john talk her into going. letting felipe talk her into staying long enough to hear him sing, and to talk after. promising pieces of herself that she doesn't know that she can give, in pursuit of a life that she is increasingly convinced has become anathema to her, no matter how badly she's always dreamed of it.

she rubs at her face. ]

yeah
okay

[ludomania]

good.

and i have a few questions for you.

[telepathy]

you should ask now

[ludomania]

i'd rather speak with you face to face.

[telepathy]

i might not stay long

[ludomania]

[ they'll see about that. ]

i'll be quick i promise.

[telepathy]

you are difficult