[ the special moment between them shriveled up and died a sad death. Felipe takes the offered bread, smiling a little. unconvincingly. maybe part of him wants Alina to see it, to realize her mistake. ]
Thanks.
[ he turns his attention to the lake as he starts ripping pieces of the loaf for the birds. he looks down at his hands like it was important. ]
[ she takes another loaf, settles down in a sitting position at the lake's edge. she rests her arms on the bend of her knees as she tears pieces of bread off. ]
It used to be everyone looked at me like I was garbage. Like I was nothing. I thought I'd give anything to change that, but now ... It's like I have to be everything. They want me to be the answer to all their hopes and their fears, but not to complain either. To do exactly what they need from me, and to need nothing myself.
[ his brows go up. on one hand, he understands, but on the other it's crazy if there's another person in this small town who believes they're a god. at least Alina's attitude to the whole thing seems more relatable than John's. ]
No wonder you wanted to run off to feed the ducks.
With you. [ she corrects, looking over at him. ] I can run off and feed the ducks on my own whenever I want. I wanted to come feed them with you.
[ to invite him to this quiet space, her space away from things. there's a tentativeness in how she looks at him, like she's hoping to get some affirmation for that choice while simultaneously asking herself if she'd made a mistake. ]
[ he's come to realize that much, at least, in his brief moment of despair. she was looking for fun, she could have brought anyone. he just happened to be the lucky guy. still, he can't help feeling hopeful again. maybe... he misread the earlier moment. ]
She needs the Sun Summoner as much or more than anyone else. [ that's the easy answer. the hard answer is that things have been Weird since genya rebuffed alina's very clumsy advances, no matter her very good reasons for doing so. ] Everyone from Ravka does.
[ she throws another piece of bread out onto the pond. ]
Anyway, isn't that the point of this? To get to know each other.
[ he's just fiddling with the bread in his hands. the ducks are growing restless at his feet, impatiently quacking at him. "the Sun Summoner"? that's an impressive title. ]
That's what dates are generally for, yeah. [ and for kissing and holding hands. he shoots Alina a hopeful look. ] Anything you want to ask me?
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
Thanks.
[ he turns his attention to the lake as he starts ripping pieces of the loaf for the birds. he looks down at his hands like it was important. ]
What do people normally expect from you?
no subject
[ she takes another loaf, settles down in a sitting position at the lake's edge. she rests her arms on the bend of her knees as she tears pieces of bread off. ]
It used to be everyone looked at me like I was garbage. Like I was nothing. I thought I'd give anything to change that, but now ... It's like I have to be everything. They want me to be the answer to all their hopes and their fears, but not to complain either. To do exactly what they need from me, and to need nothing myself.
no subject
They want you to be perfect? [ it's funny because to him she's already perfect. ] That sounds like an idol, not a person.
no subject
[ she throws the piece of bread into the lake. ]
Not far off, I suppose.
no subject
[ his brows go up. on one hand, he understands, but on the other it's crazy if there's another person in this small town who believes they're a god. at least Alina's attitude to the whole thing seems more relatable than John's. ]
No wonder you wanted to run off to feed the ducks.
no subject
[ to invite him to this quiet space, her space away from things. there's a tentativeness in how she looks at him, like she's hoping to get some affirmation for that choice while simultaneously asking herself if she'd made a mistake. ]
no subject
[ he's come to realize that much, at least, in his brief moment of despair. she was looking for fun, she could have brought anyone. he just happened to be the lucky guy. still, he can't help feeling hopeful again. maybe... he misread the earlier moment. ]
Why not Genya?
no subject
[ she throws another piece of bread out onto the pond. ]
Anyway, isn't that the point of this? To get to know each other.
no subject
That's what dates are generally for, yeah. [ and for kissing and holding hands. he shoots Alina a hopeful look. ] Anything you want to ask me?
no subject
[ more eager than she is, certainly. ]